I know what I know because I know its my truth what I know and i know that i know that I know!



Rays of sunshine.
Look, I get it, but are you going to choose to be positive or be negative?
If you get up cursing the day the moment your feet hit the floor then what kind of day do you think you are going to have?  "I don't want to get up this morning."  Well, why not?  It's a whole day of possibilities stretched out in front of you.  You tell the day you don't want to get up, you're telling the day you don't want to participate.  So, the day says to itself, "Okay, I won't let you have a good day then, if that's the way you're going to be about it."
Are you going to see your life as constantly falling apart and struggling or are you going to count the good stuff, focus on the better stuff, be thankful for the little stuff and keep right on moving in a positive vibration into the unknown stuff.
I don't want to be unhappy or sad.  EVER!
I want every day to bring me something new and something beautiful and the love of my creator.
Those moments when He comes close to me, when I'm overwhelmed with love and understanding and freely flowing tears.
You can seek answers your entire life, every moment of every day, but that one moment, is without description, needs no answers, translations, it needs nothing.  A huge breath, love overflowing, tears, laughter, ah ha moments.  That's all that matters in all of space, time, eternity, kingdom and understanding, that one moment when you know God is there, He's loving you, He's smiling at you, He's always welcoming you into His arms.
You can show me things in the text, you can show me truths, you can point me in the direction to find answers, but you cannot under any circumstances tell me there isn't a God.
I've felt Him, I'm not crazy, I don't do drugs anymore, I know He was there.  Whoever He is, Whatever He is, All that He is, Everything He is and all that love everyone is always talking about.  If everyone is talking about how good it is, then you already know how good it is.  Taste and see that the Lord is good.
I believe all sorts of different things today and in case no one has noticed I'm not chatting too much about it, but it does not change my love for God.  It doesn't change the love other people have for their God.  It doesn't change the love affair I'm having with my creator, whether I can prove He exists or not, no matter what text says, what scrolls say, what books, critics and other believers say.  What I believe is no one's business but my own, it is between me and my creator.
Who cares what I believe?
I believe I will love people.
I believe I will love myself.
I believe love wins.
I believe love heals the nations.
I believe it doesn't matter what I believe.
I believe I'll stay in this positive vibration, oneness, perfect union, in the greatest love affair of all time with the creator of the universe!  If I'm wrong it's still so amazing and who are you to take it from me?
What if everybody is wrong?
Love, love, love, all ya need is love!



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