And The Beat Goes On

Christmas is so much more than presents and who we give things to, we are gifts to the world and so is our love. So much commercialism has taken over throughout the years, but I've learned many ways to overcome getting caught up in the frenzy of it all. A generous heart gives to those it loves every single day of the year, not just on Christmas. I have 3 sons, 3 daughters in law, 2 baby's mamas and ex wife and there are 18 grandchildren, I think.  LOL. Most people live in budgeted means, as do I. I give to my children all year long, do my best to make every birthday and know it's much more important to give them experiences and build memories than to try to give everyone a gift just because it's Christmas. Years ago, I began to pick one person, someone not in my family, someone to give to.  Each year it has been someone else and that one thing has given me so much pleasure and happiness, all the money in the world to give to everyone I know would have n...

We all have giants in our lives, things that hold us down things that cause us to be afraid, to feel anxious and fearful, things we just aren't sure how to deal with. I haven't said much because I've been waiting for some legal options to be put into place but I want to tell you my story. On January 11, 2013 I quit my job of four and a half years, packed my stuff and moved home to Atlanta to be with my husband. It was not one of my better decisions but not every decision is a good one.  My husband had finished a three year stretch eighteen months earlier and couldn't leave the state of Georgia, I was having problems with my kids, I didn't make enough money to visit him, so I got the brilliant idea to move home. Unfortunately, it was not a good situation for me.  The moment I arrived, my truck was down because hauling a trailer had destroyed the entire brake system, then it snowed.  A week later my father in law passed in my husband's arms and a week...

If you've ever used drugs for any real length of time, you're going to have dope dreams. Last night it was my husband, all messed up, staggering everywhere, his focus in a million places at once and me dreading all the things that go along with that. I had dope too, and a pipe, no lighter.  Then I had a lighter, two pipes, more dope and he wasn't there anymore. The entire dream I want to get high but I don't want anyone to catch me or see me getting high. Room to room, situation to situation, still the dope is in my hand, the lighter in my pocket and he's given me a pipe so loaded it's brown on the inside, even though it's no longer than a cigarette butt. I never did get high. I never do in these dreams, the lighter is breaking, the pipes are falling apart, the dope never gets smoked.  I don't know how many of them I've had but the only one that I almost got high in I was shaking so bad trying to light it, everything was shaking ou...

I've been studying energy, manifestation and the law of attraction.  It has completely changed my life in less than two months. I'm not interested in debate or straightening others out.  I'm not interested in allowing anything that isn't positive into my space. I'm not interested in any of the thought patterns I ever had before and even my art is evolving to something better. Your life is what you say it is.  Your reality is the thoughts and things you say. Do you think your life is wonderful or do you think it sucks? Do you have negatives thoughts about almost everything?  Is there a voice in there that speaks negativity toward every dream you've ever had? Shut it down! Catch those negative thoughts and immediately replace them with something positive. This has affected me so profoundly it has even changed the way I teach and preach to others. Where I used to have to have silence to sleep, I now have wealth affirmations playing all night ...

I've been being a good girl lately, posting positive and encouraging stuff, believing every word of it and then tonight I see a post that completely threw me off guard. A "christian" group complaining about people adding athiest and devil worshippers to their ranks. Seriously? You have a problem with people you are supposed to be loving and looking like Jesus to? You're already arguing with one another, so what's the difference in these guys being here? Man! What's wrong with people? I'd rather get in a conversation with someone who doesn't believe in God and have the opportunity through grace and love to change their mind than get involved in the conversations that go on in these groups. I've been purposely not participating in them because I don't want to get blocked from being able to post my videos and the message I'm putting out is important to the kingdom and others who are hurting.  I'm purposely taking time ...

Lately I'm at a place of such great peace I keep hearing "who cares?" over and over again in my head. I care but not in the ways others do. I'm a different season of my life today, peaceful and prospering. It's exhausting trying to straighten everyone out so I choose not to do it. If people want to wrongly believe things, let them!  God has been letting it go on from the beginning.  He's not worried about it, He never was. Social media can be a blessing or a curse, I choose the blessing.  I'm growing my influence, putting out a good message, sharing love with everyone and I don't want to be involved in anything else. I'm stepping back from certain situation including church to figure out some things. I want more, actually I want it all and there's no one in the world who can tell me I can't have it. I want great influence so I can help to change the lives of millions. I want overflowing abundance in my life and plenty...

I'm realistic I believe for miracles every single day!  I want it all!  I get excited and worked up over every single little thing I get to do and you know what?  Until now, it has never turned out the way I thought it would and even now is questionable and I totally hate this feeling of discouragement and not knowing and wondering why oh why do I do this? I have to be real about this! They called me about the Sparky Babies Car Show yesterday, for the second time in a year asking if we were on.  No we aren't, but please call me again next year, because I'd love to do another. There's no food for the streets again. Walked into today believing for two thousand dollars plus and walked away with $25 feeling like I should have given one of the paintings away to a boy. When is it really going to be my turn Daddy? When do I get to be the one with all the toys, because I have so many I want to give them away to?     

WWB!!! For those who personally know me, I sign paintings WWB!!!, on my right wrist accompanied by a cross is WWB!!! and the B looks like a butterfly.  I just love butterflies. Let me tell you about my future.  Yes, that's what I said, I'm about to tell you what my future looks like. I am going to be in full time ministry.  I am going to go all over the world telling people good news and encouraging them.  I am going to sell out conferences all over the place and do outreach with that money in the cities I go to. I am going to blow up! I am going to teach others how to do outreach. I am going to go viral. I am going to see seas of faces awaiting good news. I am going to go places I never would have dreamed. I am going to be a blessing to everyone I meet. If you could see the excitement that's bubbling up inside of me you'd be amazed at what I can contain. I'm loading all the livestream videos to my youtube channels and beginning new things...

They say "You ain't leavin unless it's in a body bag". Look here partner, I came in a body bag, I'm still wearing that thing and making it look good! I'm about to explode with excitement! When I think about where I came from and how far God has brought me to today! Mercy! He had a plan for me! He wanted me to live and not die! He brought me up out of that place, hell if you will, because it sure wasn't heaven there. Its been stirring in me all day! He had a plan for my life! Amen somebody! I didn't even know I was going to meet Him, I just knew I had to go. I saw a couple of pastor's posts today where they posted the place where their lives changed forever, where they finally met God and understood what it all meant. He brought me out the streets. He gave me a new name! He gave me a purpose I never would've seen coming! He gave me dreams bigger than anyone will ever believe come true, but you best believe th...

I've been asking God for more opportunity for what seems like years now.  More ministry, more money, more influence, more everything.  He's going to give it to me too. Sometimes it doesn't look like what we first imagined, but when we're open to receive it, it's always more than we asked for. I've been given an opportunity that has birthed something so huge in me, I'm still vibrating about it. First you should know that I've been studying energy and I highly recommend Jake Ducey on youtube.  I've tried listening to some other people but I don't feel like they are being completely honest like him, so I'm sticking to what I know.  It's not something weird or strange, it's something we all belong to.  The entire world is nothing more than vibrating energy. In doing this I'm welcoming positive energy into my life and I'm reprogramming my mind to think positive and good and abundance.  I'm pushing aside negative th...

Oh my goodness! There are days when I just don't get it! It's like this horrible joke has been played on all of us and we fell for it. Since we live in a world where blow dryers have tags on them telling you not to take a bath with them, it is necessary for me to say right off the rip: don't get twisted up in what I'm about to say. I love my bible(s).  They are my most prized possessions.  There's the tried and true New King James I've been carrying for the past fourteen years, the 400th anniversary King James I've had for seven years, that's just as confusing as it ever was, but as gorgeous as any hundred dollar bible would be. A new American Standard I just purchased as my groovy little black preacher bible with the cross on the front of it.  There are several more scattered about the house, one a 1958 family bible, not my family of course, but its one of my bibles nevertheless. If I read, I read the bible. It's an amazing book, fu...

Yesterday something totally new and different happened to me and it was astonishing as well as amazing. We went to the pride march and stood on the steps of the capital with signs of love and support for those in that community. There were protesters there and I've decided for the entirety of my lifetime I will never protest the protesters. What can you say to them to change their minds?  Nothing. They believe they are right and it's just the way it is. It's alright.  I don't have to respond.  I refuse to make myself look crazy to those who don't know me trying to prove a point.  Not my style.  In this case I believe my silence speaks much louder than words. I have no desire to shout louder than them whatsoever. It was totally cool and made me feel so powerful walking away with a smile on their face asking our Daddy to fix their hearts. All I could keep thinking to myself was "All that love going to waste over something they've wrongly ...

You don't know what they did to me Darlene. They hurt me. I know, I've been hurt too. I'll never forgive them for what they did to me. You're going to have to if you want to get better. But you don't know what they did. I don't have to know, the same kinds of things have happened to me too. We have a tendency to hold tight to things:  pain, hurts, baggage, every little thing that made us feel a certain kind of way. Holding on to those kinds of things is like trying to hold a handful of sand, it's all slipping through your fingers in the first place, but still you hold tight.  The tighter you try to grasp it the more it slips away. Your pain can be a prison or a platform, it's always your choice. What are you going to do with it? If you make it your prison, it's going to make you sick and take you to some deep dark places.  It's gonna twist you up and mess up your heart as well as your head. When we hold on to those pa...